Creative Constipation
I feel like my brain is turning to mush because my job does not challenge me at all. I spend a good part of my day at work reading the news, checking up on flickr, reading various blogs, commenting on various blogs, and basically not thinking very hard on much of anything. I used to write quite a bit. I used to write idealistic rants regarding politics and society, and I used to complain about how imperfect my life was. In general, life is pretty awesome these days.
Nevertheless, I very much feel that I have become creatively constipated. I know there are creative energies inside of me just waiting for a chance to spring forth, but something is blocking them. Something has made me lazier, more passive, and less inclined to give a shit. Of course there are spurts of energetic creation. I revamped chiamattt.com a couple of months ago and I still like exploring the city with my camera. But it just doesnĄŻt feel like enough. I have ideas, I have notions, and I have impulses, but for some reason I make a lot of internal excuses not to act upon them. Sooky would say that IĄŻm just old, and old people do less. That may be partly true, but I still feel young at heart.
In my opinion, there are three things I need to do in order to free myself from this creative constipation. The first is to clean up my diet and eat healthier food. I donĄŻt think my current diet is crazy bad, but I do need to consume a greater amount of fresh fruits and vegetables. The second is to read more books. While I read a lot of news and webstuffs, I donĄŻt read enough fiction and non-fiction books. The third is to get more exercise. I am out of shape and should start trying to get into better shape. I know IĄŻll never have a six pack, but shedding a couple of dozen pounds would do me, and my health, a lot of good. I have been walking quite a bit, but I need to walk more, and broaden the number of muscles IĄŻm working.
Perhaps the biggest stumbling block to these three improvements is how drained and lethargic I feel everyday at 6pm when I leave the office after having done nothing work-related all day. I do check the job boards for other things, and I do get ĄŽpositiveĄŻ things done while I sit at the desk, but when one has nothing job-related to do between 9am and 6pm for days-, weeks-, sometimes months-on-end, itĄŻs hard to leave work fresh faced and full of energy.
I have noticed that when IĄŻm busy at work (when it rains it pours), my day goes by quickly and when I leave IĄŻm ready for more. IĄŻm ready to get other things done. By the end of a nothing-week, IĄŻm ready for my computer chair and tv downloads.
Despite my lack of creative juice, I vow to start a regiment of exercise and healthier eating. IĄŻve already started walking for about 30-45 minutes on my way home after work, and I have made great effort not to eat after 8pm. ItĄŻs a start, and I hope to see some results sooner than later. Maybe I should also start drinking and smoking less. Baby steps I say. Baby steps.
Nevertheless, I very much feel that I have become creatively constipated. I know there are creative energies inside of me just waiting for a chance to spring forth, but something is blocking them. Something has made me lazier, more passive, and less inclined to give a shit. Of course there are spurts of energetic creation. I revamped chiamattt.com a couple of months ago and I still like exploring the city with my camera. But it just doesnĄŻt feel like enough. I have ideas, I have notions, and I have impulses, but for some reason I make a lot of internal excuses not to act upon them. Sooky would say that IĄŻm just old, and old people do less. That may be partly true, but I still feel young at heart.
In my opinion, there are three things I need to do in order to free myself from this creative constipation. The first is to clean up my diet and eat healthier food. I donĄŻt think my current diet is crazy bad, but I do need to consume a greater amount of fresh fruits and vegetables. The second is to read more books. While I read a lot of news and webstuffs, I donĄŻt read enough fiction and non-fiction books. The third is to get more exercise. I am out of shape and should start trying to get into better shape. I know IĄŻll never have a six pack, but shedding a couple of dozen pounds would do me, and my health, a lot of good. I have been walking quite a bit, but I need to walk more, and broaden the number of muscles IĄŻm working.
Perhaps the biggest stumbling block to these three improvements is how drained and lethargic I feel everyday at 6pm when I leave the office after having done nothing work-related all day. I do check the job boards for other things, and I do get ĄŽpositiveĄŻ things done while I sit at the desk, but when one has nothing job-related to do between 9am and 6pm for days-, weeks-, sometimes months-on-end, itĄŻs hard to leave work fresh faced and full of energy.
I have noticed that when IĄŻm busy at work (when it rains it pours), my day goes by quickly and when I leave IĄŻm ready for more. IĄŻm ready to get other things done. By the end of a nothing-week, IĄŻm ready for my computer chair and tv downloads.
Despite my lack of creative juice, I vow to start a regiment of exercise and healthier eating. IĄŻve already started walking for about 30-45 minutes on my way home after work, and I have made great effort not to eat after 8pm. ItĄŻs a start, and I hope to see some results sooner than later. Maybe I should also start drinking and smoking less. Baby steps I say. Baby steps.
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